sister

some relationships cant really be explained. 
luisa has been there almost since i can remember. before i met her she had had a twin sister, but she didnt make it, so when i met her and her family they sort of adopted me. i spent so much time at her house or she at mine, i witnessed all the horrible family fights and she was part of some of my worst family fights. she was like my sister or at least the way i would imagine a sister. 
as we grew older we gew more and more apart, but on the otherhand we grew even closer. i told her some of my most intimate secrets and she came to me seeking a shoulder to cry on and some advice. these moments bonded us for life. but there are also other moments, when i just cant stand her and need my distance from her.
but i know that she will always be a part of my life, shes my sister. 

music

music is something that is always there, 
hearing a song which awakes a memory, sometimes theyre sad, sometimes theyre happy, sometimes theyre memories of good-byes or a moment of love.
but whatever the memory is, having a song reminding you of it, keeps it so much more alive.
that is one of things i love about music,
of course there are also the other things, the songs that feel as though they were written for you, about, or just perfectly describe your situation.
and then there is the amazing capability songs seem to have of expressing emotions so much better than anyone can in real life.
a song i love is tracy chapmans fast car, its sad but so beautiful.
i havent heard it for a long time and just now i randomnly found this great cover and just hearing the opening chords automatically made me happy. and i think the way this song is performed on the street really matches it. these guys are really amazing, i love the was they perform.
i know the quality isnt so great, but if you can see past it, its really beautiful and the atmosphere is breathtaking. 

disappointment

disappointments always follow us, they will always be a part of our lives, so we learn to live with them. and somewhere inside we learn to expect them, so as not to be surprised by them anymore. but we cant, we cant always expect disappointments, because that would mean that we wouldnt have any hope anymore. and if we dont have any hope, then we dont have anything anymore. so we forget that there will always be disappointments and we enter new relationships with new people, throwing all our heart in these relationships. and we think this time it could be different, but it doesnt matter who the person is, because you will always be disappointed in the worst possible way. at the moment in your life, when you need that person the most, and where a disappointment is most difficult to overcome.

an evening with friends, just ordering tons of food, watching some movies and talking. sometimes thats all you need, we dont always have to go out partying and drinking, sometimes all you need is an evening with friends and fun conversations.
thank you guys for the great night, it was all that i needed.

Short Time Pain - Long Time gain

"Hope is the thing with feathers,

That perches in the soul,

And sings the tune without the words,

And never stops at all."
 

- Emily Dickinson 

here at last a pciture of my beautiful, beautiful tattoo ♥