"There are certain things in life that are better off unknown, things you wish you never asked, never saw, never heard or never even felt." okay so i dont exactly know who said this, but the person was seriously right.
for the first time i realized, there wont be the happily ever after i hoped for, for the first time the reality hit me.
even though for the longest time i pretended that i didnt even know if i wanted the happily ever after with the boy, who makes me feel special, who makes me feel like i am worth more even though he doesnt know me that well, who makes me feel wanted. i knew and so did everybody else (well, that is the two other people, who know abou "us", us, what a joke) that i was kidding myself. of course i want my fairytale ending.
and i thought, hey maybe i found the right boy.
until i realized i didnt.
what can you do when you have this girl in your life, who outshines you, always. 
you arent seen, when standing next to her,
you are ignored, when shes talking,
you are not worth anything anymore, when the boy can have her, instead of you.
and what can you do, when despite all of that, you cant be mad at that girl, because you know her and love her too much.
and you always put her first. as do all the boys and everyone else. 
what can you do, when that girl likes the boy you like?
well you cant have your happy ending,
cause life isnt hollywood.
and the one girl gets every boy and the other girl doesnt get the one she wants.