Short Time Pain - Long Time gain

"Hope is the thing with feathers,

That perches in the soul,

And sings the tune without the words,

And never stops at all."
 

- Emily Dickinson 

here at last a pciture of my beautiful, beautiful tattoo ♥

anyone of you ever had a blind date?
well whoever invented them was a really, really stupid idiot!
you cant make an awkward conversation less awkward, or skale down the huge differences between you, nor  can you accept the emergency call from your best friend after half an hour, because it would seem very rude. and since this is a judging world, there is no way that you can seem like a rude bitch.
so blind dates, huh? i just had my worst blind date experience. a guy who i chatted with and who was writing really cute messages to me. everything fine, ecxept i had no idea how he looked or how old he was. but i agreed to meet with him anyway and except for the fact that he spoke with a berlin accent, and really wasnt close to hat at all, it was okay. until the part where took a stroll over a cemetry (!) and he told me, that hes 28! 28!!!!!! hes more than 10 years older me, he was there when the berlin wall went down. hes as old as my best friends mothers boyfriend. when i was 6, he was 18! i couldnt believe it, and from that point on it just got worse, well not literally but for me. it felt so weird and was so awkward. blind dates suck.
and i know its wrong to be so superficial, but i am. i dont want to be, but i cant help it. i agreed to meet a guy for coffee and the guy is 20 and nice, im even having fun with him, but hes not my type, he doesnt have a breathtakingly sexy voice nor does he look like brad pitt. i hate myself for being like that, especially because im not a beauty myself.
why do i make life so much more difficult for myself?

i dont like changes,
i dont like goodbyes, 
and i dont like growing up,
so i found my soulmate: 

"never say goodbye, 

because saying goodbye means going away

and going away means forgetting"

 - peter pan

im not really in the mood for telling you soemthing from my life right now, so youll just have to live with the words of others for now.
maybe ill feel better soon and youll get to hear my exciting stories ;)

"That's the best revenge of all: happiness. Nothing drives people crazier than seeing someone have a good fucking life."
Chuck Palahniuk, author of Fight Club

lollipops turned into cigarettes,

water was replaced by vodka,

do you remember:

when protection meant wearing a bicyle helmet?

when the worst thing a girl could get from a boy was lice?

when daddys shoulders were the highest place in the world 

and mom was the biggest hero?
when our enemies were our best friends,

and war was just a card game,

caugh syrup was the only drug we knew.

and wearing a skirt didnt make you a slut,

the only pain we knew was falling and scraping our knee,

and good-byes only applied until the next day.

do you remember?

and we all couldnt wait to grow up.

die young or live forever, right?

so heres my list of things i want to do before i die, some can alreday be checked:

- fall in love. (  )

- visist paris  (√)

- learn how to surf  ( )

- travel the world   ( )

- jump off a waterfall  ( )

- kiss in the rain  ( )

- sleep under the stars  ( )

- kiss under water  ( )

- be on the cover of a magazine  ( )

- have sex on the beach ( and i dont mean the cocktail!) ( )

- go on a road trip  ( )

- visit abbyroad and recreate the beatles cover  ( )

- see the northern lights  ( )

- move to New York  ( )

- be happy.  ( )

- 21st birthday in Las Vegas  ( )

- open on pizza place with all the real italian flavours  ( )

- get a tattoo  (√)

- adopt a dog  ( )

- go to venice  (√)

- climb the hollywood letters  ( )

- bunjee jump  ( )

- show my art (photography)  ( )

- save a life.  ( )

- find a best friend  (√)

- change the world.  ( )

- find a four leaf clover  ( )

- sleep over at the beach  ( )

- die without regrets.  ( )

- learn how to dj  ( )

- learn how to blow perfect smoke rings  ( )

- go to a drive-in movie  ( )

- take one picture for every day i live  ( )

- get lost in amsterdam  ( )

- write an article for the new york times  ( )

- open a bar with my best friend  ( )

- be an inspiration to someone  ( )

- learn how to strip  ( )

- smoke a joint at jim morrisons grave (  )

- take photo booth pictures witha complete stranger  ( )

- stop being afraid  ( )

- move through tel aviv on vespa  ( )

- take a lot of drugs  (√)  ( )

"life is for deep kisses,

strange adventures,

midnight swims,

and rambling conversations"

AMD Fashion Show

on the 25th of Febuary the Akademie Mode & Design Berlin held its annual fashion show, the third semester presented their own lines. prominent guests from the fashion and media world were there. and among them my  best friend and me, here are some of our impressions.

 

 ♥

 

dont hold my hand again,

dont break my heart again

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This is the true definition of music.