well im back from my classtrip, and lets put it this way, it was definatly an experience.
i cant even say how i feel about, if i liked or not. the thing i learned, which i should have known, is that really almost no one cares about the feelings of others. the term friendship, that you use with everyone doesnt have a meaning anymore. everyone is to obsessed in getting what they need most: attention. they dont care if  they hurt other people. im not saying im a saint i have had way to many ego trips to say that. the difference is i learned and i try to think before i act. how can people be friends if they just watch someone get bullied without stepping in?! how can you say the meanest things about your friends behing their back. and i dont mean these normal things that just slip out, i mean the things that are really bad, the things you shouldnt even say about people you dont like. the world we live in is so superficial and everyone gets pulled in. feelings are hid behind a pokerface, it would be a crime to be vulnerable, so just hide all your feelings and emotions. i do that too, and somewhere i am scared of waking up one day and not having any feelings anymore, because we get so good at hiding them, that we cant find them anymore. but how can you trust other people if you dont even know what they feel or think... you cant. that was the lesson i learned on this trip.
but i know that i cant believe in that, i have to believe in more, i have to hope.
because where would we be without hope?